Trauma, pain, going through something big. What does it look like?

THIS.

I’ve had this video saved for maybe a year probably more now & everytime I come acrossed it I start crying because I’ve said these exact words in the exact way, with almost the exact reaction before. No that length of time is not that long nothing major is something you just move around being okay that quickly it’s not healthy and it’s a sign of people who do deeply need to seek help because when something big happens to you, no it is not normal to push it aside and act as if it didn’t. It’s actually scary if you’re able to do so, and is a sign of mental illness, lack of empathy, it’s concerning. But the emotions as someone who had cptsd, and then ppd, and now ….has been given the PTSD diagnosis last year on top of those this is how conversations have literally exact tone, word for word almost gone for me this past year when talking to case workers, therapist, or places for resources while I’ve been out here have gone. I myself basically tell everyone when asked as my exact answer “I guess I went through something pretty bad” not just what I was going through but the response I get when I explain my situation is looks of horror …. It’s people trying to tell me why or how I ended up out here or what I was already trying to fight and survive from going through 2 years ago is pretty bad like really bad and you stop telling people and just say something bad happened to me because the looks of shock, horror, the comments and how it’s not something to brush off or it’s too soon to pretend to be okay it’s not helpful sometimes especially when you didn’t or dont have support to properly do that to begin with from those around you, you end up in this state and once you reach the cptsd point it changes your entire Brain chemistry that is why support systems, support from those in it, around you it’s always talked about as being essential because without it no there are somethings that will impact the way your brain works literally forever and when you also don’t have what was needed it digs it in even further and the aftermath of that is even more of a survival fight to try and make it out of alone I wish more people could understand this how it’s not small, it’s not just something bad happened that it’s major it really impacts people and when you’re fighting it alone how horrible that really is. You are not simply gaining trauma, or ptsd if it was bad enough what happened to you from what happened but you pile more trauma and more fuel that creates more post traumatic stress on top of the original incident it occured from everytime you’re left to drown, or no one hears you, or everyone turns on you that’s trauma piled on trauma piled onto trauma you do not just positive think your way out of that it is not possible. But specifically the fight I’ve been fighting for 2 years since this is exactly EXACTLY what it is like everyday ….in my head…